Since my last post I spent 8 days of incarceration in the hospital for chronic daily headaches and dizzy spells. Every neurologist was on call at the hospital but my neurologist who is of course familiar with my two brain conditions. One neurologist actually said he didn’t see anything neurologically wrong with me. He was a joke. After 6 days in Baptist Hospital they decided they weren’t going to touch me to do a spinal tap to check my spinal fluid pressure because I had my brain surgery at Mayo. Next thing I know I’m on my way to Mayo by ambulance to see my neurosurgeon and the neurology team. They sent me to see an eye specialist to have my eye pressure checked and my optic nerve had a little swelling. My pseudo tumor cerebri condition can lead to blindness if a certain amount of swelling occurs at the optic nerve. The question then became whether or not to do the spinal tap. My neurosurgeon said doing the procedure was like opening up pandora’s box and he wanted to take a conservative approach. The doctor upped my dosage of medication for this condition but I’m still having the headaches. This week I will return to Mayo for a visual field test, labs and a brain MRI to see if there is anything structurally wrong. So once again I’m at battle with my brain.
Being in the hospital no matter how nice it is or how good the nurses and doctors are is just not fun. It’s like being in jail only wearing a hospital gown instead of a jumpsuit. Bed alarms, so I can’t even put my feet on the ground or go to the restroom without calling for a nurse. Institutional meals are never very tasty. On the plus side you don’t have to wear make up, do your hair, or shave your legs. However, after 8 days it really makes you look like you’ve just let yourself go. Bushy eyebrows, messy hair and hairy legs that need a weed eater to whack the hair off.
Why am I not one of those people that just gets a seasonal cold that I could pass on to someone else? I’m always the 1 in 2 million to get the strangest conditions and symptoms that most people have never even heard of. I get illnesses that I can not give away. It is obviously part of God’s plan for me. I suppose it is his way of keeping me humble and closer to Him. I’m grateful to have the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life and to be a Latter- day Saint which has given me the foundation I need to face life’s trials. I am fortunate to have been blessed with a positive attitude and outlook on life no matter how good or terrible I feel. I’ve learned to trust in the Lord always. I hope that I can be a help to others that struggle with their health trials and the issues that come with them. I’ve had to learn how important it is to turn to my Heavenly Father each and every day to get through my life and conquer my daily health trials. You should never give up or give in no matter how much despair you are in. Heavenly Father is always there to help us pull through.